水墨江南

水墨江南，是我最为心仪的画轴。
峰峦中的涧水，烟树里的人家，
晨炊上的鸟啼，日落下的声，
匍匐在蜇气上的春梦无痕，浮漾于绵雨中的秋叶满山，
或宁静，或喧闹，或尺幅玲珑，或无远弗届。
我心中的江南，永远是一幅常读常新的水墨。

就是这一首诗，我买了水墨江南这本书。

闲聊，书

今天身体少许不适，看来应该是大病的前兆。所以就连看书的心情都像艘船遇浪一样给打沉了，只好坐在电视前发呆，看近代香港武打片。看见演员能打能跳的，就等于给自己的内心作补偿，因为我连到后面拿水也觉得辛苦。因此，就把自己当作是戏剧里的其中一位武功高强的师傅吧！

心灵的补偿，最后变成了羡慕~~~~

那天，我买了几本书。
以文学为主，
史铁生的以前的事，
熊召政的水墨江南，
还有，易中天的闲话中国人。


望病早日康复，赶快把那本《快乐学》看完，
我想看新书啊。。。。。。！

Songs that I liked

Recently, I'm devoted to 2 songs which are "Leaving" by Jesse Mccartney and "What You Got" from Colby O'donnis. Here's the lyrics.

Leavin’

Hey baby girl, I’ve been watching you all day (all day x3)
Man, that thing you got behind you is amazing (amazing x3)
You make me want to take you out and let it rain (let it rain x3)
I know you got a man, but this is what you should say
Why don’t you tell him that

I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl, we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So, call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh

Now, if I talk it, girl you know that I'ma walk it out (walk it out x3)
Man, I put my money, money where my mouth is (mouth is x3)
You're the baddest little thing that I’ve ever seen (ever seen x3)
So I'ma ask you one time, if you got a man
Why don't you tell him that

I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl, we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So, call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh

Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
Just tell him to the left, left, left
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
'Cause we gone and we gone and we gone
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl, you deserve nothing but the best
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl, you need to tell him that

I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl, we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So, call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing like
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh)

She got me singing all night like like like like
Ooooooh
Man she got me singing
She gon' me singing, oh she gon' me singing
She gon' me singing, girl you gon' me singing

What You Got

Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh
Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh

(Verse 1:) Colby O'Donis

I peeped you on the phone
Just showin' off ya stones
And notice that that pinky ring is right enough baby

I know you're not alone
But I could just be wrong
The way them fellas houndin' and sizin' you up baby

(Hook:)

And I like the way you take advantage of every man you love
I see, I seem to know your game girl
But I don't mind if ya come and play ya thug just don't talk too much
I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word
Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

(Chorus:)

Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Girl you know that you need to stop

(Verse 2:) Colby O'Donis

Girl I can tell you want something to love
That's why you hold on to everything that pass you by
Can't resist girl one can't lie
Now tell if you are here for me
Or everybody watchin' you shake from left to right
The way you move got me hypnotized

(Hook:)

The way you take advantage of every man you love
I see, I seem to know your game girl
But I don't mind if ya come and play ya thug just don't talk too much
I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word
Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

(Chorus:)

Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh)
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh)
Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh)
Girl you know that you need to stop

(Verse 3:) Akon

Our eyes away from you girl when you get on the floor and do what you do
And errbody wanna come back to that bod and kind of remind myself I'm like you
Be sure that type drive a man crazy and snatch him away from his lady
No matter how hard the man hold back he'll end up callin' you baby
And they never really know what to do once you expose that thang you do
Ya had him crawlin' on hands and knees and ya find a way to get him out that cheese
And why ya thinkin' that you the only dude she off in the mall livin' off of you
Lettin' errbody know she got you but now you feel like a fool

(Hook:)

Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Hi, people.

I think there is nothing more fantastically nice than spending just a little bit of time with your friends. Friend who is does not judge you, pick on you, back-pointing on you and talking to you with a mask. It was so great to meet my so-called "best buddies" again last Sunday night. Those buddies were used to be my classmates during primary school. We all agreed to the same thing as after so many years, we are still the same. There is no distance between us although we have not been hanging out for so many years. We still talk, scream and laugh like no tomorrow. That is the reason why I feel completely comfortable being with them.

To my astonishment, Ah Jia become freaking plump now and I almost could not recognize her. After she told me that her female hormones got messed up only I realized that isn't her fault also. I'm sorry of what she is going through now. Anyway, she is still as cheerful as the girl she used to be. Talking with her again reminds me of the moment we spent together when we were 12 years old. Time passed freakingly fast and we are 20's now. It really scare me! I still remember we were the noisiest in the class and always picked-on by the form teacher. We got scolded and punished all the time but nothing can scare us away. As we still behaved the same throughout the whole year, hahahahahhaa~~~~~

Wow~ I could not believe I really become a "Shopaholic" now. Just a few hours shopping with Ah Gao, I bought 5 pairs of earrings, a hand-bag, and skin care stuffs... I think my mom is gonna slaughter me if she knows about it. That's why we all pretended in front of my mom and said Ah Gao bought all those stuffs. Well, she bought a few stuffs too! Also, I have made a mistake before I went shopping. I was wearing a pair of heels to Jusco. OuchZzz, that was freaking torturing for the whole day. I also promised my mom to help her buy some groceries but end up forgot everything. Just chit-chat, shopping, laughing all the way..... What a terrible daughter I am.

Today, I went to Ah Jia's printing factory to have a look. Hmmm, nothing much to explore, just normal printing stuffs as I expected. After that, she went V2 to collect her Diploma Graduation photo album. I was exploring all sample albums they have in the shop and I realized many albums were taken by couples. Not really marriage photo album, but couple photo album sound great to me. Really feel like having an album with George. Unfortunately, he's not here and I'll be leaving soon. Hence, no point doing it and forget about it. =( The most funniest thing is Ah Jia went Kampar by bus today. Everyone says she is "gila" when I told them about it. Because her mom says she waste petrol, play too much and stuffs. Haiz... Moms ~~~

茶啊~ 茶啊~
你怎么就那么的神奇，那么的美妙，那么的完美？

你的魅力，
让我神魂颠倒。
你的香味儿，
技惊四座的昏眩。
你的味道，
让我留齿回甘。

I have tried some excellent tea in KL!

Awww, it has been awhile that I have not been writing my blog. Well, things work pretty well this few weeks. I have been to quite a lot of place like the gorgeous Redang Beach and shopping in KL. I shopped until I really drop. Ooops~~~ spend a lot money then together with my darling George. He bought his stuffs and so do I. Actually we should have been to more places like Penang or Singapore. Unfortunately, my parents were not allow me to go Singapore with him. I was so much wanted to go there as I would like to meet his family and friends. Also, George has made a few Restaurant reservation there which I think it's gonna be very fascinating. Gosh~ I missed those nice stuffs, man. What a waste! Well, I think we can only have our romantic moment again probably next year in either US or Aussie. Anyway, I think we seem to work pretty well as a long-distance relationship compared to others.

***** I'm writing my blog now. Guess what is that George doing? He's sort of laughing in front of the Webcam because he's watching some show. Tsk Tsk Tsk~~

Haiz, someone has complaint that I wrote too much Chinese on my blog. What to do? Suppose to be able to read Chinese but lazy and slack when studying last time. How can he not be able to recognize the word "米"? That's impressive!!! 6 years of Chinese learning plus High School. Dear, you should have gone to some Chinese lesson again. Well, if you don't mind, I could be your personal tutor. Don't worry, I charge very reasonable tuition fees. Hahahahahahahaha~~~~~~

On the last day in KL, we went to my favourite tea shop called HOJO. I was expecting to meet Mr. Akira Hojo and talk to him again about the teas and stuffs. Too bad, he wasn't there and no choice we just chatted with the staffs there. We tried 4 kind of teas there. Those are all fabulous gorgeous good quality fine teas. We tested 明前梅家乌龙井，黄茶君山银针，东方美人，and 日本绿茶之王-玉露. In the process of trying those teas, I could even know how to express myself properly. Firstly, the Long Jing tea is better than those George had brought back. The tea left is not that flatten and looked more greenish. The aroma and taste are also very smooth and fine. As for the yellow tea, I have actually told the whole world that I have FINALLY found this kind of tea selling in Malaysia. As what I expected, Mr. Akira Hojo told me that the village and farm of the yellow is extremely small in China. Not many people can get to drink the original tea, not even in China. That's why I'm very particular of differentiating the real and fake tea. I must have a very good background of the tea then only I will taste it and purchase it. I was freaking excited when I saw this tea selling in the tea shop. I think I have almost break my friend's arm when we saw the tea together as I was holding on her elbow. Hahaha. It didn't disappointment me when I tried the yellow tea. The feeling was just "WOW", and then made me close my eyes and taste the flavour of the tea again inside my mouth. Third one, I would place it the second rank fermentation tea if I have to compare it with the "Classic Diamond". It tastes a little bit sweet, also a little bit bitter, but it work perfectly fine with this 2 flavours mixed together. I'm lovin' it! The last one, my favorite! Very fine, very smooth... People always say that you will have nothing to say when you really has the opportunity to drink a very fine quality tea. It completely make you "speechless". Well, I think that's very true. The tea tastes like Lishan and Alisan tea. These 2 are very excellent teas in Taiwan. But I just can't believe that the yellow tea is more expensive than the excellent Taiwan teas.

I'm so so so devoted to Tea Art, Tea drinking, their culture and history. That is just so fascinating to me. I find every single tea leaf has a life and when boiled water pour onto them, it makes them to have a new life again. Yeah, cannot be denied. This is called ART.

How perfectly satisfying to me when I just have an empty moment to watch and appreciate the tea leaf flow up and down through the water inside the transparent tea cup.

穷忙族

这几天都在报章上看到有关“穷忙族”的报道与咨询。什么是“穷忙族”呢？穷忙族是个舶来词，英语为working poor ，指那些每天超时工作，薪水却没有相应增加，不仅无力置产，甚至还要为养老金担忧的人。报告显示，穷忙是比穷更为恐怖。穷不止，还要忙个心力交瘁，无法让生理与心理获得宁静的平衡。这个难以脱离的社会问题已经在很多个国家曾经发生过，例如日本，韩国，德国，美国等等。现在已经来到马来西亚了。这种现象通常只会发生在城市内而不是生活朴素的乡村。虽然以城市和乡村的薪水相比之下，城市人的薪水固然比乡村人士的多。不过，城市的开支与消费却比乡村的来得恐怖的多了。薪水三千的又怎样？只是汽油费，房租费，手提电话费，保险费，平时吃喝玩乐所需要的费用都不够给了，更不用说储蓄与给钱父母了。为什么社会是这样的呢？通货膨胀一浪接一浪的迎面而来，让人无法顺畅的呼吸。可是，偏偏人工薪水就不会增加，这样下去叫人民怎么活啊？如果这个社会问题变本加厉的话，最不幸的就只有基层的“打工仔”了，也就是现在所谓的穷忙族。唉，我们可爱又可恨的政府，何时才能停止政坛上争得你死我活，暴风暴雨的烽火连战呢？然后抽出点时间窥视一下人民叫天不应，叫地不闻的悲惨困苦。这很难吗？

难道现在21世纪的政府还需要鸡奸，诽谤，诬陷之道为生吗？我国已经为政坛上的事件制造的一连串的国际笑话了，而且应该也成为了世界历史了吧？以前，我还会讥笑台湾政府政客的不检，现在竟沦落到马来西亚这个平平凡凡的国家。看见真是令人心疼不堪啊！

《快乐学》

《快乐学》

了知苦，去苦因，苦灭已，由修道。

倘有离苦之道在，

分秒不停应去寻，

仅有愚人续求苦，

知毒仍饮岂不哀。

——— 第七世达赖喇嘛

那些在享乐，财富，荣耀，权力及英雄事迹中寻求快乐的人，就像孩子们想要获取彩虹做外套一样的天真。

————顶果钦哲仁波切

我经常认为炫耀只是一种幼稚的态度，谦虚才是真正的财富。很多时候，我们身边周遭的人都会说他们的生活不快乐，不愉快。为什么会这样呢？每个人都会说是因为薪水不够多，在公司里不能升级当总经理，不能每年去旅行，或者不能在政坛上杀个片甲不留获取名堂，流芳百世之类之类听了让人厌倦的借口。可是，有没有人想过其实这一切的不快乐是由内心的“欲望”与“自我”而形成的。如果一个人放下了“欲望”与“自我”，生活是可以很美好，自在与祥和。因为当你觉得金钱与名利是过眼云烟，你就不会再拼命的去追求它，而且你还会觉得这一切是异常肤浅的一种人生追求。那么，当一个人拥有正常的心智，能跑，能跳，能走，吃得安， 睡得乐，你还会需要什么呢？

然而，“自我”也就等于“我执”。过于以自我为中心也是能够造成内心不愉快的一种重要元素。我们会同时变得自私自利，特别关心自己，欲望增加，想把最好的留给自己而忽略他人的需求。当这一切不能达成的时候，我们便会气馁，烦恼及焦虑。不快乐的心情就由此升起，个人变得烦躁无比，只想着自己的成与败，把内心变得非常心胸狭窄，没办法提升到更美好的境界。“自我”与“我执”可以说是一面又心意而造的玻璃墙壁，是看不见的，因为它并非真实存在。这道墙隔绝了我们的内心世界，也阻断了无私和生命的喜悦的流畅性。只要我们能卸下我执的重要性，就能赢得内心不可思议的自由啊！而且，我们不需要再以做作与自私的方式来思考，说话与行动。真是不亦乐乎！！！

自我的藩篱被打破时，心智就像一个广大的湖泊。

真正的快乐不是由人表面的享乐而达成的。真正的快乐是拥有内心长存且持久的一种满足感而形成的。那一种真诚的满足感伴随着内在的自由，内心随着自在的满足感而自由翱翔，然后从此进入一个无度空间。我读到了一个令我恍然领悟的一个例子：已故的心理学家Michael Argyle引述了一位二十四岁英国女人的案例。这位女士赢了一百万英镑的乐透，她立刻辞去工作，很快便觉得无聊；她买了一栋别墅，却发现很快与朋友失去联络；她也买了一部极度豪华的汽车，却不知道如何开；她买了许多衣服，却没有离开过衣橱；她去了很多高级的餐厅，却只吃炸鱼和薯条。不到一年她就得了忧郁症，觉得生命空洞且不满足。

佛陀说：

如流星，如阳光，如烟；

如幻，如路，如泡；

如梦，如电，如云；

应如是观。

怎样？觉得这个真实故事是不是与我们的生活很相近? 人们时常以为金钱能带来快乐，那么这个例子你又怎么解释呢？这个女人最后还得了忧郁症，多恐怖啊！这也证明了生活表面上的享乐是短暂的，不持久的而且不能让我们的内心心灵扩展，探索快乐自由的真谛。因此，我觉得内心的智慧与知识才是人生最大，最具享受性的财富，这种快了美好的享受是非常非常持久的，谁也不能从你的身边夺走。然而，真金百银是能够被夺走的。

向内看，内在是善的泉源

"向内看，内在是善的泉源”

今天终于心甘情愿地收拾心情好好地去阅读我刚买不久的一本书《快乐学》。这本书是由一位法国分子生物博士，Matthieu Ricard所写的。他是一位西藏的喇嘛，他懂得梵文而且还将很多的西藏佛典经文都翻译成英文，让更多的人能够有机会对西藏佛典有更深一沉的认识与了解。我个人非常喜欢以上的那句话，当我读到那句话之时，就觉得那句话带给了我很大的启发与智慧。顿时，内心有一种笔墨不能形容的悸动。但同一时间，我的心境也达到了平静自在的感觉，好舒服哦！我把眼睛闭上，然后脑海里不断的重复那句话，一句一句的在内心给念出来。

如今，太多的人向往“向外看”的生活，却很少静心地去探索内在的自己。“向外看”的生活不外乎金钱，事业，物质享受及地位名誉。当你拥有这一切的时候，你有没有想想自己到底是谁，到底是为了什么而去争取这一切，这是不是你想要的生活，自己到底快不快乐？坦白一句，在2008年里，我领悟了一样事情，就是真正的快乐并不是金钱所能买到的。最近的我，花了太多的时间向外看了。却远远的忽略了内心的成长。对我而言，内心的成长是一种非常纯朴且宁静的“满足感”。以前，当我还在念高中的时候，这种“满足感”经常与我同在，陪伴我长大。但久而久之，内心常乐的感觉渐渐离我而去，记得有一阵子我还在朦胧之间迷失了自我。迷失自我之时，我偶尔看见了恐惧感的存在。我虽然拥有一切，可是为什么我总是不断的在没有方向感的船上晃个不停，不晓得何时日出日落。那时，我才知道该是时候探讨内心的需求与想法，问问内在的我真正需要的是什么。

看来，陈颉纹的快乐并不是一般物质的享受而能够给于的。我发现兴趣对我很重要，我能够在兴趣上获得自我也能在兴趣上寻找自己的一片天空。只要每天能够心平气和，无忧无虑地喝一杯樟树湖，玩一玩茶座上的茶壶茶杯，那真是人生一大快事! （懂我的人就会知道什么是樟树湖）

以后会有更多的茶缘之谈，请留意！
刚刚品尝一杯来自中国梅家乌的龙井茶，脑海里已经联想到当地的茶园茶叶与虎跑泉水。这一杯龙井只是用普通水冲泡，实在是遗憾不堪。

夜间2：46
晚

I've got my Blogspot account today!!!

Blogging was such a "Bullshit" to me when it first started to be common and popular in a few years back. I think I have not fully understand the real meaning of having a Blog at that period of time. I used to think that people like to show off their life, fame, glory and stuffs by writing blogs on the internet as everyone in this world could view your blog as long as they have a computer. Again, I have a habit of writing dairy since I was 12 years old until now. That could be one of the main reasons why only I got my Blog started now, and well... Im 20 this year, Hah! Dairy seems to be so personal to me. It is my friend as well and dairy is the only thing that I could completely express my real feelings and tell 'her' everything under the sun. Since it is freaking personal to me, how can simply write anything on such a dangerous place that anyone could read my stuffs? That's really sound ridiculous to me!

Anyway, years after years, I've been grown up in such a crazily technologically advanced world. Mostly everyone, my friends, seniors, juniors, mentors, they have a Blog and it began to sound less ridiculous to me. Regarding to this issue, I have to thank to the person who came out with one of the psychological terms of 'Peer Pressure'. It does work pretty well on me. I admit that I got trapped into that term. I again realized that you can freely express yourself on the Blog because people nowadays are pretty busy with their busy life. I dont think they actually have so much time to spend on reading your boring, lousy english Blog. Unless you have something really really really special to read like you suddenly become a billionair or a "dump" mental illness patient. (Sorry to use the "dump" word to label mental illness patients, just to fully express myself actually. In fact, people like them are pretty smart and brilliant, they just got their nerves system break down due to some unpredictable events.) But this could hardly happen in normal people life (like me) unless you are that "Lucky".

After reading the above paragraph, you can probably see that things change freaking fast in this world especially someone's mindset. I cannot deny the fact that the world keeps changing no matter what. You know, the "Big Guy" up there rule the universe and he is in-charge of everything. Well, I always think that he likes to play games with us, human beings. Oops sorry, let me re-phrase, he loves to play a lot of games in fact. He will eventually take back the things that he has given to you while you are growing up to be a girl, a woman, or a nanny. So what are you waiting for?? Go appreciate what you have now and move your ass and get back to do what you are suppose to do now, immediately!!! Have you ever say "I love you" to your parents or have you ever kiss or hug them? Go do it, man... Frankly, I did once before under the coercion by a so-called motivational seminar when I was 15. I hope I could have the courage and do it again now. But Im scare~~~~ So, I'll probably return my love to them with other stuffs like giving them a blissful and satisfying life next time. Don't worry, I'll definitely do it!!!

Wow, I guess I have out of the topic. I think that's the reason why I could not score well on my essay as I can be distracted easily. Actually what I wanted to say is... he has always been inspiring me in my life since I was 15. And now, he gave me the inspiration of how my life should be and how should I lead my life again. I would say he my life coach in English and "Master" if you wanna interprete it in Chinese. When I read his Blog, I realized that having a Blog isn't something as shallow and simple as I used to think. It embraces a wide range of issues. First of all, I've learned the virtue of sharing with people. You could share what ever information you have with all your friends by posting video, photos or website links on your Blog. In fact, I really got a plenty of info that I wanted to get from his Blog. After I read his Blog, I really have the urge to post him comment but "sucks" my dad's computer does not has Chinese Star software. That's the reason why I'm writing in English now. Duh~~~~ Nah, not that bad actually, I really don't mind writing in English, I just so much wanted to post him a comment. Thanks, Shi Gong!

As usual, I did nothing much today. Just went for a movie called "Wanted" with Chyn and her sister. I think it was a stupid movie with illogical contents. I was like kept on "Duh-ing" inside the cinema, can't really stand it. After that, I went Watson and Sasa to check out the Sunblock that I need it for my trip next week. I guess I have to start packing my stuffs then. Again, I had dinner together with my grandparents and cousin at somewhere near my house. At night, dear George and I talking over the phone. He got stomach ache after having some "Tou Fu Fa". Awww, poor dear...